kikyos poem

i like it.

They're all very good.

Very very nice.... brava.

i sit here
thinking of him
even though he is near
he seems so far away
i sit here thinking
about things that have happened today
things i didn't say
and things i did that didn't come out right
wondering if he will still love me
when he gives me the look
that only i know what it means
people starring to see what i will do
if i will smile like nothing has happened
or if i will turn away and try not to cry
who will be there for me if i do?
will my friends?
or maybe his?
i sit here thinking what if...
what if he does leave me for the girl on the cheerleading team
or the girl in basketball
will he choose to stay with me even though its been over a year
and if he does how long will it last??
a month,
two months,
if im lucky maybe another year....
so as i sit here thinking can anyone help me
help me get through all the agony
of waiting on his decision...

thats really good....

Who am I?
Where am I?
Why are all these people around me?
What happened?
Why can't i move?
Why is my body numb?
Is there anyone who can help me?
Why can't they hear me?
Im screaming out their names...
Why can't they hear?
Am I not yelling loud enough?
I close my eyes.
I see the darkness again...
When I open my eyes again
I'm in water
sinking...
sinking to the bottom of something.
I hit my head.
Now i can't see a thing
It's to dark...
Why can't I breath?
Why can't I swim to the top?
Where is everyone?
Doesn't anyone know i'm down here?
What's going to happen to me?
Is my life ending at this very moment?
I feel a sharp pain in my arm
like a needle...
I open my eyes
I see the nurse...
she has something in her hands
What is it?
Then i realize that she did stick me with a needle
That's why i feel so numb...
I look around the room...
thinking that maybe someone might be in there with me.
I was right...
there was a girl
sitting in the chair next to me crying
Why is she crying?
I tried to ask her but the words didn't come out...
She must of heard something
Because she looked up at me...
With a single tear rolling down her cheek
she said something
but i couldn't hear
What is she saying?
There I am lying in the hospital bed
Her fears she's conquring
There is silance once again
the tears start again
for she knows that I can't hear her.
What happened to me?
They try to tell me
but I can't hear a single word they say
There are two nurses in my room
when I wake up again
the girl was gone.
Where did she go?
What did they do to make her go?
I try to look down at the rest of my body
but all I see is the blanket.
I try to ask the nurses what is going on?
Why am I here?
But they can't hear me.
That night there's someone else in my room
sitting in the same chair that the girl sat in
Only this person is a guy
well he is younger
I lie there thinking
Do I know anyone younger?
He looks familier...
Then a little while later another person comes in.
Finally morning comes
I hear the T.V. on
I look around I see the girl again
I try to say something and this time
there were words coming out
She looks over at me
and smiles
and says I love you!
I can't remember who she is though.
Then i asked her who i was?
And why i'm here?
She told me everything.
And she even told me who I was....
she said my name like she was longing to say it.
So as I lay there in the bed
I think about what she told me
and I was happy that she was there
to tell me the story......

grr irritating it doesn't tell what happens!!!